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Bad girls go everywhere

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This post is for no particular reason, just to show off my favorite new hair from Exile that a friend of mine Miss Adriana Juriya told me about when I saw it on her yesterday looking all cute and stuff.

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I saw this skirt from Fanatik last week I think and knew that I wanted to buy it but what to wear with it? I asked my lovah, Miss Caelan Hancroft and she suggested this Corset from Celoe.. and well I threw on these pearls from Mandala and my sexy Sophia “fuck me” peep toe shoes from Gos Boutique and well I’m happy with my look today. My poses are from Izzies and Purple Poses.

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“Cause I may be bad
But I’m perfectly good at it
Sex in the air
I don’t care
I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But chains and whips
Excite me..”
Rihanna

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In the shadows

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It’s after 3 a.m. so why can’t I sleep? Seems I’m awake with a sour feeling in my tummy and no idea why so I thought I’d do a blog to try to take my mind off of it.

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I thought these shadows were interesting and I already loved my outfit. The skirt is from this fabulous round of Collabor88 from Teefy, and has to be one of my new favorite mesh skirts there is. Just look how it makes my butt look! This sweater is new from the Secret Store, and it’s amazing how real she made those roses look.

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My shoes are of course from Gos Boutique which I have not taken off in one way or another. I’m serious about my shoe fetishes! My hair is from Truth, and my skin is from Al Vulo which is a steal currently at TDR. My poses are from Izzies.

Dare to bare

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Beautiful, perfectly matched, bare feet is what I’ve desired for so long in Second Life, and now with a one time matching system from Gos by Gospel Voom will make this possible for all of us lucky ladies later on today.

If you want to know when you can be one of the first to check out the new items from Gos Boutique, join the in world Gos Boutique group and you will be in the know! This system is so flawless and simple. I can’t wait until everyone gets to check out how brilliant it is. Also there are over 50 fabulous nail polishes and over 250 skins in the grown database!

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I am also wearing lingerie from the The Sea Hole, Jewelry from Zaara, Dreads from Boon and feet of course from Gos Boutique! My skin is from Al Vulo for only 70L at the Dressing Room Fusion. The Skybox in the background is from Barnesworth Anubis and the furniture is from Laqroki.

More to love with The Four Walls Hunt

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So, have you been enjoying the Four Walls Hunt? I know that I have. I love love love hunts that feature home stuff and so far this has been one of my favorites. I mean who can beat the prices as well, 20L for some of this great stuff? Crazy!

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In this post I have stuff from Mudhoney, Pilot, Cleo Design, Cheeky Pea, Vespertine, Abiss and Digs. I totally love how I can just sort of throw everything together and it looks so nice, many of the items of mesh and very low prim too. Seraphim SL even made a cool gallery here: http://seraphimsl.com/2013/01/20/four-walls-hunt/ You can look at all the items separately.

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In this post I am wearing a beautiful 70L Skin from Al Vulo that is at the Dressing Room Fusion. The Mesh Purse in my hand is new from Glam Affair. I’m wearing brand new hair from Mister Truth Hawks, A new long sleeve shirt with my Lolas from Izzie Button of Izzies, and pants from Boom that were on sale for Fifty Linden Friday. My jewelry is from Cae (Cae is Fifty percent off this week at Truth District!) and Yummy and my poses are from Purple Poses.

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Running into a New Year

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i am running into a new year
and the old years blow back
like a wind
that i catch in my hair
like strong fingers like
all my old promises and
it will be hard to let go
of what I said to myself
about myself
when i was sixteen
and twentysix and thirtysix
even thirtysix but
i am running into a new year
and i beg what i love and
i leave to forgive me

Written by: Lucille Clifton

This poem just strikes a cord so deep.
Lets make this next year one of the best!

Credits:
Pose Stool: Diesel Works @ Zodiac
Hair: Truth
Skin: Al Vulo – Jade
Eyes: Ikon
Jewelry: Cae – Enchanted
Dress: Cynful
Shoes: N Core

Concerned Bloggers – Suicide Awareness w/Possible Trigger warning

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It’s another month, and another Concerned Bloggers topic. This month it’s Suicide Awareness. It’s not a light hearted topic and instead of weighing you down with facts or general advice (which you can find here – this website does a much better job: http://www.save.org/) I’ll give you a bit of a story of my own struggle with it.

The stuff below could be potential trigger warnings so please proceed with that in mind.

Ever since I can remember I’ve been dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide. There was that time in the Six Grade where I ate a bunch of things in my grandmothers medicine cabinet thinking that’s all it would take but luckily most of the things were vitamin and aspirin. In my teens and some of my twenties there was cutting, and other self harm things, which graduated to my first really serious attempt in December of 2005.

Things piled up on me one day in ways that I can look back and think are stupid now. It was really snowy that day and there were many reasons piling up on me that led me to that point but I remember not feeling like myself that day and I got up and packed a backpack not sure of where I was going to go and I rode the bus around not wanting to go home.

I stopped at a store and bought some Vodka and razor blades and I went and rented a hotel room with a large Jacuzzi.. only I had planned on using that room as my way to escape my life. I started to get drunk, really really drunk and I ran the water in this large tub and well my phone rang.. and it was my mom.

It freaked me out that she would call at that moment and I don’t remember what I said to her but she kept calling me and I didn’t know it but she called my friends and so I turned off my phone and got in the tub and started the cutting when I heard my friends banging down the door saying that they were going to get the cops if I didn’t open up, so after awhile I let them in.

They were obviously upset but thankful that I was alive and well after that they took me to the hospital where I spent the week before Christmas trying to get better. When I got out I didn’t feel any better but I was thankful for my friends and I made a few attempts to try and turn things around but It took two more attempts and being in the hospital two more times before it did.

Now I’m medicated for my depression and going to see a psychiatrist and therapist regularly and for the most part there is no wish to harm myself. I realize for the most part I was looking for someone else s attention, only I didn’t use my voice and say “Hey I need you, come over”

If you ever feel like you need to hurt yourself tell someone. If you don’t have anyone to tell – IM me in world if you want to talk about any of this – I wont judge you and I can keep a secret.

Point is if you feel this way, tell someone. The most recent attempt that I made was almost four years ago and it could have been fatal, I almost didn’t get a second chance, but seriously each moment with people that you love is a gift, and I am a survivor of myself for everything that I’ve put myself through.

It’s a new year, make it count.

Preview of Collabor88!

“Take back what you said little girl
And while you’re at it take yourself back too
I’m tired of sittin’ and waitin’
Woman, whatcha gonna do now, whatcha gonna do about it

I’m thinkin’ about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it”

Make a sound and I’ll make you feel right
Right at home
Right at home

You know you got me waiting in vain,
How come it’s so easy to you?
You don’t strike me as the type to be callous
But your words seem so obtuse
But then again I know you feel guilty
And you tell me you want me again
But I don’t need any of your pity
I got plenty of my own friends
They’re all above me

And I’ve been thinkin’ about my doorbell
When they gonna ring it, when they gonna ring it

Song in my head: My Doorbell – The White Stripes

Credits:
The Seahole Skirt and Top for March Collabor88 opening on 3/8/12
Clawtooth – Venus Hair in Pipi for March Collabor88 opening on 3/8/12

Skin – Alice from Al Vulo for the Private Room Event. Shoes – N-core.

Sunflowers


“and the gray Sunflower poised against the sunset,
crackly bleak and dusty with the smut and smog
and smoke of olden locomotives in its eye–
corolla of bleary spikes pushed down and broken like
a battered crown, seeds fallen out of its face,
soon-to-be-toothless mouth of sunny air, sunrays
obliterated on its hairy head like a dried
wire spiderweb,
leaves stuck out like arms out of the stem, gestures
from the sawdust root, broke pieces of plaster
fallen out of the black twigs, a dead fly in its ear,
Unholy battered old thing you were, my sunflower O
my soul, I loved you then!”

– from the Sunflower Sutra by Allen Ginsberg.

Just a general post of love in praise of poetry and my love of coldLogic who makes some of the best mesh around. This shirt and pants can be purchased separately or you can mix and match quite a bit with many of their wonderful pieces to make your own fabulous outfit.

I’m still wearing this hair from Exile, the Bring it on hair is a new favorite of mine. The skin from Al Vulo from the Private room event for only 300L is too. I’m also wearing Eyeshadow from Boom.. as the skin is easy to dress up with makeup layers. My shoes are from N-core and the pose where I am standing is from /Geez/

Oh and if you will.. I was hoping for some feedback about my blog or just anything in general.. you can do it anon. here. Would love constructive crit. Thank you!
http://whatiswrongwith.me/sylviaolivier

Bring it on!

Just a quickie to say.. I love the new Mesh Pigtailed “Bring it on” hair from Exile. The style is adorable. I love it. I’m also wearing the Princess Pearl set from Donna Flora, which is one of my favorite pearl sets now in SL. Guess I have good memories associated with it now and Donna Flora does make beautiful jewels.

The dress that I am wearing is an oldie but goodie from DP Yum Yum. So delish and femme. For spring, I want 1000 dresses just like this. The skin is the Alice Skin from Al Vulo for only 300L at the Private Room Event that just started yesterday. Poses are from MiaMai for Fashionably late, and are perfectly executed. Shoes are from N-Core and the bed in the background is from Baffle!

Have a great day!

Alice

The Private Room opened today and Al Vulo has a pretty new skin out called Alice for only 300L. Alice has a pretty fresh looking face and is not over powered with tons of makeup, it’s a very cute skin. I am also wearing brand new hair from Wasabi Pills, it’s a mesh style so you must have a mesh enabled viewer.

The Dress that I am wearing is from Aoharu who has some fabulous new mesh pieces out. I love the mesh turtle neck with leather dress. My boots the new Triumph boots from Gos. The poses are available at the Private Room Event for only 10L a piece from Purple Poses. My tights in this post are from Izzie’s who makes adorable tights and lots of other very cool things.

The patio let behind me in this photo above is from MudHoney for Stumblebum that is still going on.. it’s a really adorable set.